You can't see it but you just can feel it.

These few weeks has been havoc, especially in the nights! You guys got any ideas what went on! Last wednesday night was to Sentosa to celebrate Janice's birthday. Then Thursday night was cousins' outing because my cousin, Karen, just came back from Beijing for the Lunar New Year. Right after that, it was clubbing at Play with the COOL PEOPLE. It was really damn fun and all but Friday till this Tuesday was damn bad because I had super high fever! Nearly 40degree Celsius! Almost died....

Then just after I recovered, I received a call from my dear friend, Marianne AKA Malan, that she needs my help because my other friends were drunk and high at Zouk. So I cabbed down and I'm telling you, one word: SHAG. I even got elbowed on the face when I was trying to look for my other friend(the drunk one) in the dance floor. Anyway, I found all of them in the end. I'm just glad they are all okay now. Seriously, one bottle of Chivas?

Photo time!






COOL PEOPLE: Jamie, Mag, Amelia, Marianne, Maddy, Janice, Layteng, Shermain, Ben, Yunni, Karen and me!


Everyone is telling me to just talk to you and then carry on with life because the way you talk to me is just not right. i know you aren't like that. I know you don't mean to reply me with just one word or two. You just don't want to give me any hope but trust me, I hardly have any already knowing you. I just don't understand why can't you just accept what I'm doing as a friend. I mean, a friend can you also text you and ask if you are feeling better after a major illness recovery. I know sometimes I go the extra mile and you may not want it and you didn't ask me to but honestly, I can't help it. I can't help but worry when I know you are clubbing with crowds that can't be trusted. I can't help but worried that you are drunk. I can't help but worry when you are sick and want to buy you liangteh. I tried, really, to stop texting you unnecessarily because I'm afraid of irritating you. I know I'm not your kinda guy and theres not even the slightest chance for you to like me but hey, please be cool about it, about me liking you. Trust me, if i could I would stop myself but liking someone is not like you can say "hey, forget it" and you forget about it. It sucks yeah know? To try to show care and concern and then to receive replies like "yup" or "okay". I used to think that it was because of me thats why you are treating me like that, that I'm not good enough. Thank god I'm over the whole "I'm not good enough" season. Everyone is different. Maybe I don't have what the others have. Maybe I can't give you what the others can but hey, you needa start looking at what I HAVE and not what I don't have. Maybe then, you will see me in a new light. OH God, I don't even know if you see this.

A caring friend of mine message me online with a quote:
"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

Thanks dear friend. You are really a friend who I know I can count on and despite the fact we don't talk all the damn time, you are still there for me. Thank god for that. We should definitely catch up soon! After Chinese New year?


Somebody call 911, Daniel needs help.

Good night everyone.

Its been so long since I posted anything here. I'm sorry people, job and all is just not giving me the opportunity to write anything. Anyway, I finally bought the book I saw at MPH last week and finished reading it in 2 days. Its really that good yeah know. I recommend everyone to go read it. Its by a local writer, Kasandra Kong.



So please get it!

Many things have been happening and much has been going through my head. I will update more on my status when things get confirmed.

Cya all around and Happy New Year!

Today, I've decided. Back to the corner where I first saw you.




P.S: look at me.

I know it's abit late but oh well. Here's my wishlist!

The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown ( I think I'm gonna buy it myself later )
The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks( It's movie is gonna be out next year!)
The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks ( I heard it was very nice but I always didn't get a chance to read it. )
Three cups of Tea by Greg Mortenson ( This guy is doing what I would love to do )
Stones Into Schools by Greg Mortenson ( Squeal to Three cups of Tea)
An Ordinary Man by Tom Zoellner ( it's an autobiography for Paul Rusesabagina, the man who saved 1268 lives in the Rwandan Genocide. )
A Long Way Gone: Memoirs of a Child Soldier by Ishmael Beah

Yeah I know they are all books but I think it's about time I start developing my reading interests! Oh if u think that theres any other book that might interest me, be it English or Chinese, please let me know! (:

Good night!

P.S: Check out the trailer for The Last Song

PROM! Today was 2009 TPJC prom! It was awesome with all the pictures and everyone! Pictures will be uploaded once I get my hands on them. I didn't bring a camera so I was using many other people's cameras so the pictures are scattered all around. I'm probably gonna get them via facebook haha! Anyway, the hot girls, pictures and post prom drinking is just part of the big night for me.

I BACK SPACED THAT PART. -edited-

Okay, it's late and I still have work tomorrow. Hope to meet up with the climbers next monday on my off day. With my class people too!

Good night Singapore and everyone else! Thanks for the wonderful night.

Hey all, its my first post since A levels ended and while waiting for my hair to dry and go to sleep, i will probably talk about what happen for the past two weeks! Well for the first week it was all fun and enjoyment! Thats for sure but hell it costed me nearly 300bucks? If I weren't out, I would stay home and play World of Warcraft. Then I realised I probably should do something with my life. SO i went to get a job and was officially hired yesterday by Timbre as a full-time worker at Timbre mobile! Its hard work but I love working there! The people are all very very nice! Today was first day of work and it was awesome! Tiring but AWESOME! I learnt many things! People do come to Timbre Mobile okay! Its new so it hasn't really got busy yet but it's really nice! It's at East Coast Park Carpark C1! U can take bus 31 or any bus to parkway parade and walk to East Coast Park via the underpass, it's just 400metres from the exit of the underpass! (: hahah! Okay I beat. Night all!

 I'm unhappy to see you upset.

 Today was more productive than the past few days though still not up to my expectation. But i'm happy that I finally do economics for more that 4hours. I really hope I can do well for it. and other subjects too! Oh well.

Studied with Tracy and her friend at library. Left at 4plus with her to Macs. I realised that macs is de place we spend the most time talking.
Cheer up Tracy Foo!

P.S: need someone to talk to me.

 So many things to say, yet so little time. Maybe I will type more tomorrow when I find the time.
Deprived.
Longing.
Repetitive.
Thats it to life.

I know Jerome gets well soon. Then we can laugh again together.

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that lovin' you

It's what I was trying to do

Nice night out today with the climbers again! =D This time round, we celebrated Karen's birthday and time out with them was, is and will always be fun =D I think pictures say all =)



HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN! We will always be here for you! =)

I think this is going to be one of those few posts that I truly type for myself and nobody else because despite all the fun and slacking for the past four days, I had time to think and ask myself some questions. Within the next 5mins, I don't wanna care what people think about me, I don't wanna think whats gonna happen. The next 5mins is just gonna be about me and the Earth and my world is gonna just revolve around me. I wanna be absolutely selfish for the next 5mins, because I wanna really say whats in the "secret box" of my soul for the past four years. I'm just afraid if I don't talk about it, there will come a time where I know it's there but I just can't bring myself to place it.

Ever since the new phrase of my life started, I thought everything could begin anew and that I could finally let go and maybe, just maybe I will understand why it didn't all work out. Time comes and go, yet I realised how powerless Time can be for people like me. "Theres no wound time can't heal." So they all say, but what if it isn't a wound? Yeah, just recently, I realised the hole in my heart I always thought as a wound was just merely a part of me who wouldn't give up, who wants to carry it on despite how hopeless the situation may seem. It became a hole after a chronic effect to remove it. You see? Theres nothing there, so no wounds. If theres nothing, then what is there left for Time to heal. After so long, it all but take a little nudge and it all came back. So hard and so much effort, it was for nothing because the deepest part of me, didn't want to let go or couldn't.

Despite meeting many others along the way and thought I could really share that part of my life with someone else, I realised I was deceiving myself all long. I know its wrong to bring others on this wild ride of mine when I had no intention deep down that I wanted them there for the rest of my life but I had to try right? From now on, I'm gonna go where my heart leads me to. I will think of it whenever it comes to my mind and not push it away or stash it up. I will do what it takes as long as I have no regrets and be there always..

Prelims are finally over! okay thats good and bad because that means A levels is nearer and freedom is just around the corner. Hmmm quite a dilemma I must say! But I want all these to end soon please!

Okay back to good fun, good company! Yesterday, Friday 18th September, I went out with the cool gang again! Jerome, Jolene, Jamie, Kimberly, Gloria and Mabel! I know Orchard Ion has been out for awhile but yeah, almost of us never been there before! Yeah, thats me included! We had Tampopo for lunch at Ngee Ann city first. It was good food, good company and good day out!

Then after some of them left, Timbre with Jamie, Jolene and Mabel! Haha, Mabel was classic and welcome Jolene to the club! hahah!






dont mind the unglam me and the unglam jolene, thats the one group photo we managed at timbre hahah

Today was day out for birthday celebration, will post more when I get photos!

P.S: It gets harder everytime because I just know you are my big mega soft spot that I cant get rid of.

My temper is getting from bad to worse these few days. I just seem to feel it building up all and that I'm using most of my energy just to restrain it. That's one of the some main reasons why I get so tired once I get home everyday these few days. I have no idea why is that so. I just really hope it blows over and that I don't start, at all, shouting at people's face. I have done that much in the past and I don't want to do it anyway. I'm so sick of the angry feeling. I want to feel calm and peaceful all over again.

I just wanna say sorry to those who are offended in a way or another by my stupid attitude these few days. They were unintentionally done. Begging for forgiveness now...

On a lighter note, I know my PES already! I'm PES AL1! Fit for direct combat and frontline! YAY! I really hate being "handicapped"! Anyway, I doubt would be able to make it to the unit I want if I was anything below PES B.

Time is running out. You need to run faster than time, Daniel. A levels is right in front of you, poor grades is right at your butt. Don't let the poor grades catch you.

I want to sleep. Long day all over again.

P.S: Its still ringing in my head and helps me a lot to keep my temper down but i wonder how long will it last.

I am at macs right now. Just got a econs essay done up. Yeah, I have been writing a lot of econs essay but I know it's all worth it, even though I'm really sick of it. hahah Oh well. Today was a happy day in a way or two. I got back my Chemistry test that I took last week. I thought I fared really badly for it but ended up i did quite okay for it. I got a B and top my class for it. At least the hours I'm putting in are worth it.

Then finally I climbed to relax a bit. It was fun! =)

I think I need to buck up on history a bit.

The past few days were bad. I fall asleep last night without knowing the world was still spinning.

Bye. Chemistry now.

P.S: It keeps ringing in my head. Oh well, it keeps my world spinning =)

Hey after so long, I finally fulfill my wish of going to science centre and take a look at Da Vinci Exhibition! Omg it's really very nice and all! Learn alot of things like, did you know all the airplanes originally came from his ideas? The physics like ball bearing and all he figured it out all way back 500years ago! So brilliant! I learnt things like golden ratio! Did you know that your body parts all consist of the ration 1:1618? Cool right!
The best part was I went with TOMOKO WOO ZHI ER! NAH, see I post about it okay! who ask you send me the photos so late! hahah!
Totally miss those days we used to hang out and all!


Girl of the day!


Da Vinci the bomb!



Okay alittle something from GP class on Friday!

Okay i need to sleep! got a long day ahead tmr! =D

 This is my first post using my macbook! OMG! This is so cool! All my troubles are like gone now! So happpppppyyy! 

Hahaha! Anyway, this part is for Jamie Fei Mei! HAHAHAH! Thanks so much and I know what to do now! And yeah, u are a happy girl once again! Thats really good =D i don't like your sad face u know! =D SIMLES!

k off to play with other parts of my macbook!

Bye!

Despite many people find my advice to them useful and good, i have none for me.

I can tell people whats going on because I can see clearly whats going on. Yet, for myself I have totally no idea at all.

I just hope someone can tell me what's going on and tell me what to do.

I need to screw everything else and concentrate on studies.\

MY  MACBOOK is here! I going to collect it tmr! =D yay!


I'm off to study now. bye.

....I'm feeling so fucked up.

I can't bring myself to be angry at you, the sole reason why I'm even so bothered.

Just want you to be happy, even if it means that you will never realise my existence.